I took a week break from my blog to refresh and it definitely felt good. There has been so much happening in the world. Finding a new normal during a pandemic can be hard especially working from home with two toddlers. My kids miss school and we definitely miss our old routine. I can’t even imagine what they are feeling when I try to explain to them that it isn’t safe to go to school, play with their friends, or even just go to the park. I try to explain the best way I can to a four and two year old, but I also can see how much it saddens them. We have been home for a month now and it has just now began to hit me our worlds are not going back to how they once were. At least they aren’t for a very long time. This past week I was watching our governor give his briefing and it hit me that no matter if I like it or not, life will be very different for the coming months. When all this began I figured two weeks that everything would be shut down at the most. We are now going on over a month and I’m guessing it will go on longer. Social media and inaccurate news articles don’t help as I feel as though I slowly began to feed into the panic of all that is happening.
I love being positive and optimistic. During times like these I try my best, but each day has its ups and downs. Although for the most part our family stays busy in the backyard, jumping on the trampoline, or doing a craft, there has also been tears, anger, and frustration among us all. I have noticed a few more tantrums than normal both from them and me. Yes, even me… I am thankful that I have been blessed with unexpected memories and moments with my kids that I will hold dear to my heart for the rest of my life. The other day Macyn and McKynleigh wanted to go play outside. We found ourselves making bird nests and putting bird feed out. Their happiness as they saw their finished bird nests, which was just grass, lit up my face. They are enjoying the little moments and I am enjoying this extra time I get with them that I otherwise wouldn’t. But nonetheless, it is hard having the world you knew flipped upside down. Keeping up with my blog and other social media honestly began to take a toll on me. It feels good to be back though! Sometimes all I need is a quick break to reset myself. I think after a few days of not writing and focusing on other things, I feel more ready to get back to one of the only normal things I have left. So thank you for the love and messages. I hope you are all hanging in there and staying safe!