To my daughter

An open letter to my daughter,

McKynleigh, you were prayed for more than you will ever know. Before you were even created, I would dream of my future daughter. I dreamt of having a blonde hair, stylish little girl who was just like me. I was always unsure of what to name you but I knew you would be my little princess. When your dad and I started talking about having one more child after your brother began to get a little bigger, I prayed and prayed for a little girl. And then, there you were.

We went in for our c-section and they put you over the drape for us to see. You looked so much like your daddy but I instantly noticed chubby cheeks just like me. You were sassy from the start, I should’ve known we would have our hands full. As you began to grow, your blonde hair came in and you have sprouted into the most beautiful, strong willed, independent, and loving little girl I have ever met. You believe that weeds are just as pretty as flowers and that everyone deserves to smile. You have a very strong opinion even at two. I better not tell you what to do or else you will stand your ground till I agree with you. You truly are a natural born leader. You don’t take anything from anyone, which may get you in trouble now but will be a good trait down the road. You love hugs and sometimes only want me. That’s okay, I will soak in the cuddles. You may pester your brother, but you two are inseparable and you are so much like him. You love pink and are very persistent on wearing pink everyday. You may have been my second child, but you taught me many firsts. You hate the car even after two years so I am betting you will love to drive since you will have control. Slow down though, you are already growing way to fast. I feel as though I blinked and you have grown into a sweet little girl who is ready to conquer the world. You may not know, but I think you are one of the coolest little girls ever when you flash your girly girl outfits while digging in the dirt with a truck. You always have something to say and have stressed me out more in your two years than I thought was possible. I love our mornings singing to school and I love that you ask me for an extra hug every day before I leave.

McKynleigh, you changed me. You shaped me. But most of all, you completed me.

See, you added the missing piece to my puzzle. I didn’t have that mother/ daughter bond like we do. I didn’t have that person to lean on and I’ll be honest, it has been hard.. But you gave me that. You gave me that bond that I had so longed for myself. You filled a void I had been ignoring for sometime. I may not have my mother in my life, but I have you. You completed me, as a mother, in ways I didn’t know I needed. You may have not been my first child, but you are and will always be my little girl who made me a better me. You and your brother pushed me to be the mother I wanted my children to be proud of. You and your brother pushed me to be the mother that was everything I don’t have.

I know I may not be perfect and I know we are going to have our moments, but you will always be my little girl. You may be small, but you are mighty. You are going to move mountains baby girl. You are going to accomplish your dreams and you are going to always have a mother to lean on every step of the way. I will always be here for you, no matter where life takes you. I love you McKynleigh.

Xoxo

Mommy