They brought him over to me and laid him on my chest. He had the most beautiful blonde hair and handsome dimples. In that moment, all the pain I had endured vanished. He became my whole world and from there on out, I would dedicate my life to being the best mother possible because he was my air, sun, and happiness.
When I walked the high school graduation stage, I was 3 weeks pregnant with you and had no idea. Before I could even turn 19, you were born. 16 1/2 hours of labor and an emergency c-section later, you were here. The moment I saw you I felt complete. In that moment, I never thought I would blink and you would be a tall little boy who has strong opinions and a spunky attitude. You are also the sweetest little boy I know and you adore your little sister with every last bit. See mommy will cry as I say goodbye but not because I’m sad. No, instead I will cry because I know that from this day forward things will never be the same. From the time you were born till now, you have always been with me. I have cherished every moment of staying home with you and watching all of your “first” milestones. I watched you grow from a little 8 pound 13.5 oz baby boy to a 40 pound toddler who could eat a house and loves sports. I watched you become a big brother and I watched you become your sisters guardian even at a young age. You have been my best friend, even at 3. If I ever felt down, you knew exactly what to do and how to make me smile. See even though I will miss you more than words could describe while you are at school, I am so proud of the young man you are becoming. I am so proud of how smart you are and how caring and compassionate you are to others. You have a heart of gold and enough persistence to last a lifetime. I know the moment I hand you over to the teacher your future starts and whatever you wish to become, I will be there every step of the way. Never allow anyone to stand in the way of your dreams. You can do anything you set your mind to! I am so thankful to be your mommy and I will always be here no matter how big you grow or how old you get.
I hope you know just how much we love you, Macyn. When I leave, you will probably shed a tear or two but I know you will love every second of school. I imagined this day for so long and I knew all summer it was coming. Yet, even now I’m not ready. You made me a mom young and I can’t imagine it any other way. I am so excited for this next journey of yours and so excited to see what amazing things you do. I love you Mace Mace.