To my first born on your first day of preschool

They brought him over to me and laid him on my chest. He had the most beautiful blonde hair and handsome dimples. In that moment, all the pain I had endured vanished. He became my whole world and from there on out, I would dedicate my life to being the best mother possible because he was my air, sun, and happiness.

When I walked the high school graduation stage, I was 3 weeks pregnant with you and had no idea. Before I could even turn 19, you were born. 16 1/2 hours of labor and an emergency c-section later, you were here. The moment I saw you I felt complete. In that moment, I never thought I would blink and you would be a tall little boy who has strong opinions and a spunky attitude. You are also the sweetest little boy I know and you adore your little sister with every last bit. See mommy will cry as I say goodbye but not because I’m sad. No, instead I will cry because I know that from this day forward things will never be the same. From the time you were born till now, you have always been with me. I have cherished every moment of staying home with you and watching all of your “first” milestones. I watched you grow from a little 8 pound 13.5 oz baby boy to a 40 pound toddler who could eat a house and loves sports. I watched you become a big brother and I watched you become your sisters guardian even at a young age. You have been my best friend, even at 3. If I ever felt down, you knew exactly what to do and how to make me smile. See even though I will miss you more than words could describe while you are at school, I am so proud of the young man you are becoming. I am so proud of how smart you are and how caring and compassionate you are to others. You have a heart of gold and enough persistence to last a lifetime. I know the moment I hand you over to the teacher your future starts and whatever you wish to become, I will be there every step of the way. Never allow anyone to stand in the way of your dreams. You can do anything you set your mind to! I am so thankful to be your mommy and I will always be here no matter how big you grow or how old you get.

I hope you know just how much we love you, Macyn. When I leave, you will probably shed a tear or two but I know you will love every second of school. I imagined this day for so long and I knew all summer it was coming. Yet, even now I’m not ready. You made me a mom young and I can’t imagine it any other way. I am so excited for this next journey of yours and so excited to see what amazing things you do. I love you Mace Mace.

Xoxo

Mum Mum❤️

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